knowing when to rest...and how to rest

sometimes it feels like my head just spins..so much in life that is totally out of my control and then so many things that i want to do and i get excited for.  between the two i get squashed into an ADD firework show.

the few times that i actually stop thinking is when i'm riding.  everything is totally quiet.  sometimes i hear my own thoughts but they are not screaming out at me or coming 2-3 at a time.  they are like soft whispers of happy thoughts.

but what happens when the body is tired and you can't ride (run, swim)?  take a rest day..rest week.

over the last six months i've been sick twice...and each time i was sick were chest/lung related where the thought of doing a ride was out of the question.  (and i'm still sick as i'm writing this with a gurgle cough, swollen lymph nodes, and general malaise).  i think back at what lead to each of those illnesses and noticed that i was putting in serious time and energy without adequate rest.  not just a day rest, but a mental and physical rest week.  a week to pull back and let my body properly recover.   just have fun and do whatever i wanted and play.   what a concept.  i know this basic principal as a trainer, but as an athlete i'm a stubborn bull unable to give up my training, my riding.  my riding gives my brain a chance to breath and let the stress go.  unfortunately, by letting one stress go, i take on another that is wearing my body down.

the body is an amazing work of art.  it works constantly to find equilibrium - you train hard and the body adapts to the stress, you stop exercising and the body adapts.  my body isn't just dealing with my stress of my 9-5 job and mountain biking but the stress of raising 3 girls, taking care of finances and a home, and not to mention the challenges of a teenager.  oh yes, and having a relationship.  my body is under so much stress that i don't know how to relax if i'm not riding.  a friend mentioned to me today (impeccable timing), he said 'resting isn't just sitting and relaxing, it's relaxing in here' and he points to his head.

i took a day off today.  i was suppose to be on my weekly wednesday night ride with class A riders but instead i listened to my body and rested.  i'm still working on resting...in my mind.

peace out..
chi